my heart feels empty
it feels sad
i long for the loves i once knew (e & p)
i don't recognize my life
i don't recognize myself
how can i get from here to there?
how do i find a balance in all the instability?
where is my souls mate?
did i pass him by?
why is this so difficult?
why can't i fly?
it's not like i made good choices before,
but it's like i'm stuck now
i feel trapped
i feel unloved
i feel pessimistic
i feel discouraged
i feel let down
where is my faith?
what is right?
why am i so sad?
why can't i get it right?
no joy, no excitement, no remedy, what to do?!?!?!?
can't get p out of my mind...
if i had unlimited funds...
what would i do?
be selfish and indulgent?
would that fix it all?
probably not.
drink,
eat,
exercise,
dance,
love,
be affectionate,
believe in God,
be creative,
enjoy the fine and simple things in life,
have a purpose,
have a clear mind,
make sound decisions,
have a optimistic future,
have a bit of a social life,
filled with love, food, music, caring,
art, travel, companionship, understanding,
consideration, support, compatibility, agreement,
maturity, peacefulness, symbiosis, comfort, rest, mutual desire,
can love conquer all? really? time to fast?
why am i so sad?????